Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Secret

Here's a little Secret....

I wince a little bit every time I see your babies.
I'm so happy for you, sincerely, truly, without reserve.

But my little nose gets cold, there's a lump in my throat and my eyes get watery and I know... I just know I would be good at that.  I look at their pictures.  They are 4... 6... 10 with long hair in their eyes and I know.
I would make a good Mom, too.

I could have done it already.  But anyone that knows me knows I wouldn't make that happen without feeling it was just right.  Without the right situation, without a man that would make a great... no GREAT Dad... there's no way I would have brought life into this world without that.
But I do stop for  minute and stare, while feeling so happy for you and for your little ones....I think for a minute...I could do that.

1 comment:

  1. My secret is the opposite to yours. I never intended to have children (I have 3). I was going to be a career girl, travel the world, host elegant cocktail parties and have a string of lovers. Well my life didn't pan out that way and whilst it is good, I also regret what "might have been".

    So I guess I sort of know where you are coming from? Not the same sort of pang but pangs none the less.

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